Struggles suck! There's just no way around it. It just sucks. And when you have been working and fighting and finally get a breath of air and feel like you are almost above water just to be sucked back down and fighting again, well, that's just...I don't know. It's just hard. It's painful. And then if you are a Christian, you start to think - is it me? Do I bring this on myself? --- probably sometimes. But we are supposed to be overcoming, victorious, prosperous - right?! Sometimes I feel like - where is the victory?
The victories and glorious mountaintop moments of achievements are special, precious, and wonderful, but they are also rare. When going through the mountain range, there are many mountains to climb, and much more valley and climb than mountaintop. And the truth is, that if we never struggle - we are not relateable. And if we are not relateable - we are ineffective. We are a once beautiful polished trophy of hard-fought victory now collecting dust on a shelf. And that is NOT what God created us for.
At some point you have to make peace with the fact: "It is not about me". You are divinely created with a great purpose, but it is not to promote your celebrity. It's all about pointing to the God of this Universe who sent His son to earth to become a man and die on a cross for our sins and be raised from the dead - all this so that even in our flawed humanity we could receive Christ's salvation for our sins and be free and once again know the intimacy with our creator that He intended.
And if we never suffer, if we never struggle, we might have lots of fun feeling self-righteous and enjoying the fact that we are going to heaven when we die, but we are not bringing anyone else with us. Other people want to know that you get it, that you care. And suffering makes us aware, understanding and compassionate...it's one beauty of having a relationship with Christ, struggles make us stronger and more tender, instead of bitter.
"We don't have a priest who is out of touch with our reality. He's been through weakness and testing, experienced it all—all but the sin. So let's walk right up to him and get what he is so ready to give. Take the mercy, accept the help." - Hebrews 4:15-16