Sunday, December 28, 2008

Stranger Than Fiction

Have you seen this movie, "Stranger Than Fiction". I was categorically opposed to it at first being that Will Farrell is the lead character and in every other movie in which he has starred has been crude and juvenille. This movie, though, this movie awoke something in my heart. A poet, a romantic, a journalist, a mystic, all this persons came alive again in me tonight. There are moments, many moments that are transcendent of time in this linear fashion that we view it, and this movie revived those moments. It awoke in me those desires that I oft put aside for such drudgery as balancing finances and returning phone calls in a timely fashion.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Cindy Lou Who

"Where are you Christmas? Why can't I find you? Why have you gone away?" These are the lyrics that little Cindy Lou Who sings in the movie "The Grinch". Many of my friends have touted it cheesey, but something about it resonates in my heart. Where is the celebration of our savior coming into this world?

Lord, I vow to You this moment and each day to take this time to celebrate Your great mystery, great miracle, and true Love that allows us to know Life fully and everlasting. God, teach me how to teach our precious girl to celebrate You, to know You, to know Your voice and Your ways. It is sometimes hard for me now, with all my Christian education - it was so much easier to have innocent and perhaps naive childlike faith. I fear teaching her what I was taught may also leave her feeling jaded later, but perhaps such simplicity is necessary for tiny hearts and minds. Or perhaps even more likely, is that I have failed to recognize that God defies human reason and yet His truth is remarkably simple.

Show me Father, nurture me to nurture her. Be celebrated in our life; be celebrated in our home.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

"Come now, let us reason together," says the Lord. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. If you are willing and obedient you will eat the best from the land; but if you resist and rebel, you will be devoured by the sword (or money, or things, etc)". For the mouth of the Lord has spoken.

Oh what a beautiful terrifying promise. Thank you Lord that you continue to make my sins white as snow. Thank you for your abundant blessing.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Big Girl Pants

Today I need prayer and need to pray. I am going into an environment where for the most part I am ignored. Mostly it seems that I am just an irritating tag along. I try to be a helpful part of the goings on and to build relationship. Unfortunately building relationship requires some sort of vulnerability, and inevitably something I value is mocked or I am personally insulted. Ok, I said it - it's hard, a challenge.

Now that I am done throwing my pitty party, it is time to put on my big girl pants and tackle this thing. Lord I am done stressing about this situation today. I give it to You and I ask for right attitude. You have placed me here for a reason and I need You to help me bring glory to You. I will put on the full armor of God - the belt of Truth, breastplate of Righteousness, gospel of Peace, shield of Faith, helmet of salvation, and the sword of the spirit which is the Word of God. I will go forth in Peace and Love, I will trust his word, and I will not hesitate to defend my family against spewed venom.

Monday, November 24, 2008

A LIfe Worth Retelling

Life is often not what I expected. I am a dreamer, a romantic, and oftentimes I look back and realize that even though it was not the way that I expected it was a story of epic proportions. The truth, the reality, was far more worth writing down, retelling, and remembering for future days.

These days have been trying. Some days I find myself just right on the brink of falling it feels like. When I wake up the next morning and realize that I have not, in fact, fallen, and that God has given me the motivation to face this new day - I feel stronger, wiser.  God is building staying power within me.
Now the prayer is thankfulness for the assertiveness and wisdom and heart transformation so that the things that I do or say will bring honor and glory to God.

I'd like to have the faith of a child and wisdom of the aged. I'd like to live a Life worth retelling, but not too much time spent writing it down.

Monday, November 17, 2008

"Your own soul is nourished when you are kind, but you destroy yourself when you are cruel". -Proverbs 11:17

Sometimes it is easy to be cruel without thinking of it when we are hurting or frustrated or insecure.

Have you ever thought of how easilly the words "I don't like her/him," roll off our tongues?  I hear it often; I've said it too, but think about how prideful that is - that because a one or a few things a person does rub us the wrong way we can just decide that we don't like them - as if we decide who has value and who does not. 

When we feel insecure because another woman looks good, we criticize her and say that she must be "trying too hard" or be really vain, and we are just real...or worse - we tell her or say to others "I hate her" - acting as if it's in jest, but in our hearts we know the truth. 

But when we can be confident in who God has created us to be, and in the victory that Christ died for us to receive, and the great triumphs that He has overcome in us and forgiven in us - we can allow others to be free as well.

Speak Life, kindness into the world - Lord knows how dearly it is needed.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Dear Friends,

Hello sisters and brothers on this journey of life with me. This is a place where I would like to share some thoughts that God has dropped in my spirit or ideas on which I am meditating and processing. At times I can feel something so deep in my soul I think I might just spit it out on the first person I see, so instead I am opting to journal in this form with hope of enriching others and encouraging dialogue.

Scripture says that a woman of noble character "speaks with wisdom and faithful instruction is on her tongue" (Prov. 31:26), and it is my hope and prayer to exemplify such character in my life as well as this blog. I promise to carefully and prayerfully consider my words prior to selecting "publish post", and ask to that you hold me accountable to exalt the Lord in all things spoken here.

Sincerest Regards,
Kandi